I'm sorry...

I'm sorry I didn't know how to save you
I'm sorry you didn't get to know your Papi
I'm sorry your feet never felt sand between your toes
I'm sorry you never hit your first home run
I'm sorry that there is a tree in our yard in your name instead of you playing
I'm sorry you never got to try to ride Abby like she was a horse
I'm sorry I never got to kiss a boo boo for you
I'm sorry you didn't get to dive into your first birthday cake and to open presents
I'm sorry we didn't get to read books together by nightlight
I'm sorry I never got to sing you made up songs with your name in them
I'm sorry that there are so many things you missed that is impossible to list them
I'm sorry I didn't speak loud enough, push hard enough and trusted my instinct
I'm sorry I broke your heart, your Papi's heart and the hearts of every person that loved you
I'm sorry I didn't get you here safely
I'm sorry I failed you
I'm sorry I didn't know you were dying inside of me
I'm sorry I was too busy to notice
I'm sorry I couldn't hold you an kiss you goodbye as your sweet spirit left your tiny body
I'm sorry you died alone and unnoticed