Positive + Positive = Positive....Right?!

For starters, I can't even believe that I am writing this entry....but once again life has proven unpredictable and certainly a little intimidating.

I am the proud owner of two shiny new positive pregnancy tests. Yep, you heard that right.....not one but two. And the REALLY positive kind, you know that is positive way before the 3 mins are up......I was due to start my period on the 11th, and of course didn't. Then it dawned on me today, the signs were there...peeing all the time, feeling wiped out, stomach feeling unsettled....just the same feelings I had with Luke. So I got the tests, took one in the afternoon and one after I told Vladi tonight.

Don't ask me how really....well I know how, but seriously?! One time....one time we've had sex. I know, that's all it takes. I sound like a high school girl. When I say one time, I mean we stopped pretty quickly into things because it was still uncomfortable for me and we didn't have any condoms. Vladi said he didn't, and I don't think he did either (you know what I'm talking about). So I say, Seriously?! WOW, just call me Myrtle.

I think Vladi and I don't even know what to thing or feel....I guess surreal pretty much sums that up. Pretty good description of life in general lately.

I hope Vladi isn't mad at me (I know why would he be, but still worried). This wasn't the jumping up and down with happiness that I think we thought our next positive pregnancy test would bring.

I've got to believe this baby has the same perfect timing in our lives that Luke did no matter how long he/she is with us. I've got to believe that God and Luke had a pow-wow and said, "yep time to send your brother or sister down." I got to believe this is bigger than us as we continue to live in the statistical minority. Hopefully it will be the "good" minority this time.

So I guess a call to the BBL (Big Boss Lady-high risk Doc) and BL (Boss Lady-primary OB) is in order tomorrow. Maybe we just need to see that little flash of a heartbeat on the screen to help us process for now. One step at a time right?!

So here it is......(dates have NOT been altered for increased dramatic reaction)

Luke's b-day: 7/28/09
First and apparently last period: 9/11/09 (yep, I'm extremely regular like that)
Quasi-sex (as I am affectionately calling it): 9/24 or 9/25
Missed period: 10/11/09
My freak out: 10/13/09 12:45pm
Vladi's freak out: 10/13/09 7:30pm
EDD: 6/18/10