Missing You

There are still days, it takes over and I am knocked down unexpectedly by grief. It's like that wave that you don't see coming and next thing you know you are pulled under gasping for air as your face is dragged along the rough ocean floor.

I am some how still surprised every time by the sweeping emotion and how quickly I am back in that hospital bed holding your precious body...it is fresh and just as raw as the moment it first happened. 21 months later and I can recount every hair on your head, every thought that raced through my mind, every tear that was shed, the weight of my heart in my chest, the shape of every little finger. It is an overwhelming mix of sadness and love.

I miss you sweet boy. Not a day goes by I do not think about you. I love you beyond words.